Mentally I am not doing so well, I have been having a hard time going to bed over a lot of different things but lately, most of it has to do with major guilt that I am feeling over having to give up my two dogs Stella and Sebastian. Both doggies were my life and number one priority and my constant companions. Sebastian however, was even more so... don't get me wrong about Stella, I love her just as much as Sebastian, but there was always something about him that was different from so many other dogs that I have known... I feel like Sebastian was my guardian angel and that he was with me to keep me safe from myself if that makes any sense [?] There were sooo many times that I feel like I couldn't go on anymore with anything and I would be in such a low point in my life on a constant basis and the only one I ever talked to about any of my feelings that I was having inside of me was Sebastian, and whenever I would sit and really talk to him, I could feel like he was really listening to me and wanted so hard to tell me that everything would be okay. Well it's been almost a year since I have given them up and over a month since I last saw the two [the just moved with their owner to Delaware and before moving I was able to go visit them whenever I wanted] But right now I am sooo down and I know that I will get out of my funk, I always do, but I just miss Sebastian sooo much. I feel like the biggest failure of a doggie owner and that I didn't try my hardest to keep them and I feel like they know that... I just want to be with Sebastian and Stella right now and fall into a deep long nap with them and feel the sweetest comfort that would give off that dogs are so well at doing. :( Posted are some of my favorite photos of Sebastian, and tomorrow I will some of Stella....